It has been a couple of months since i touched this blog. i can say that i'm not wondering why. It has been a jampacked 2009. I'm still going through a lot of things, but, there has been a shift of perspective. it's not that i'm numb. it's just that i'm so tired of letting negativity rule my life. i tried to fool myself that i'm positive before, but deep inside, i still couldn't let go of the pain i had before. but i got so tired of trying to carry the world on my shoulders that i dropped it and learned to prioritize.

So, what happened since i last visited my blog? Well, i resigned from Sitel, almost went home to davao, then got hired for a new job. Next thing i knew, i was fixing my papers, then flew to the UK, stayed and got trainedfor 2 months, then went back last march. so..... this is where the whirlwind starts.

since we got home, we have been swamped with work. i mean after 9 hour shift work. so 9 hours, we train a class, after that, we had projects, we had meetings, calibration sessions, FGD's, trainbacks and the like.

we also took care of the needs of the clients who are helping the account. it's all good, understandable especially this being a new account. but what disappoints me is the age old problem of ops blaming training for stuff that should have been (in my opinion as well as the other trainers) tackled in a-bay.

jeez. here i was minding my own business... when these stressors come in. at least i don't whine anymore. true, i complain, but if nothings going to come out of it, i leave it.

so i'd say the only thing missing is the love of my life... hahaha. learned that problems aren't everything in life. there's gotta be something more. something great. something special... (looking at the world with rose colored glases.)

i want something like noah and allie... but that's .... only in dreams.